fireflys_locket | Entries tagged with nana

My Mom and I were going to see Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 yesterday, but the bulb on the projector died. It was going to be my 7th time, but ah, well... these things happen. We went to the Mall next, where I found a game I'd been thinking about getting (Shadow of the Colossus), but it didn't have a case or booklet. I'm really OCD about buying used games. I want everything. In decent condition, too. So, I didn't get it.

The day continued in a similar fashion. We had to backtrack around looking for my Mom's lost hedgehog earring, which turned out to be on the couch at home the whole time. Well, I can't say the same thing hasn't happened to me. I'm glad she found it.

There was more, too... but basically, it was a real bummer of a day. Nothing absolutely horrible happened, but I was still not feeling well. I had a little cry before we even left the house, when I finished off the NANA anime in English. I have to say, I'm pretty pleased with how it turned out. Now, I just want more. Maybe Ai Yazawa won't ever finish the manga, but there's plenty more left to animate! Please.

It's funny, though. In spite of yesterday being a total wash, I'm feeling pretty good today. Maybe because I've made it out of my 7 days of bad mood that started last Tuesday? Maybe yesterday was the end of it, and things will start getting better from here. Maybe the clouds are clearing.

Or maybe, I'm heading into more bad news? Haha. I guess we'll just have to see.

Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Matt & Kim - Daylight (Simlish) | Powered by Last.fm

I've been writing a lot of journal entries lately, haven't I? I guess I've had a lot to say. Strange. Being depressed makes me wordy, apparently. That makes sense, actually. I guess this wave of depression started with those dreams on Thursday. I feel too deeply, and it always causes me pain. I'm feeling very alone and depressed. Truthfully, I know some things that can usually pull me out of a depression. But I sometimes, I choose things that I know will make me hurt more. Sometimes, I just need to let it out. My mom worries. She says anything that makes me depressed is bad. It doesn't exactly work like that, though.

I'm watching more NANA today. I'm starting to really get used to the English voice actors and enjoy their performances. The only one I'm still a little sour on is Nana. But only a little. Anyways, my heart is breaking open anew watching Hachi's pain. I miss my Nana. I miss all my friends. I feel like I'm not really apart of anything anymore. Nothing really depends on me. No one calls me to ask for advice or just to listen. I'm a good listener. But I just wonder... is there really any place where I could belong?

When I do talk to my friends, usually a Facebook message here or there, they say they miss me. But their lives are so busy and nothing ever comes of it. Sierra's really the only one who can find time to see me when she's home. I appreciate her so much for that. But when she's away at school, I go months and months without seeing anyone but my family. Sometimes, I don't even see my Dad for many months. My other close friend that I actually talk to... well, things can be complicated with him. And it's not like I actually see him.

I do appreciate what I have. Or I try to, at least. But I still wonder if it really matters that I'm around.

I really hope this entry doesn't scare anyone. I'll be fine. Well, as close as I get to fine. If I'm not feeling better by tomorrow night, I'll just watch the Best of the Endurance Run until I cheer up. But sometimes, I just need to feel for awhile. It's part of who I am.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Olivia - Recorded Butterflies: Studio Live | Powered by Last.fm

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I absolutely go back to my favorite things. I've read the Harry Potter books at least 3 times; the first 3 probably 10 or more times. Just in theaters, I've watched all the Harry Potter movies at least 4 times, most 7 or more. I saw Peter Pan in theaters 10 times, at least 3 times since then. I've seen A Walk to Remember and Titanic probably at least 5 times, even though I sob every time I watch. Genius I've watched countless times after heartbreaks and bad days. I watched my favorite Disney movies over and over when I was young. I'm surprised my Lion King VHS still plays. Though I expect that's common for kids.

Even some of my newer favorite movies, like The Girl Who Leapt Through Time and Lost and Delirious, I watched my favorite parts over and over for a week or so, enjoying my new obsessions. HeH.

Also, though the question is just talking about books and movies, I've played Kingdom Hearts probably 4 full times, many other partial times. I've played Final Fantasy X twice. I'm not sure how many times I played Super Mario RPG, but I'd say at least 5. I really need to finish 2nd playthroughs of Shadow Hearts and Covenant. And I've watched and read NANA tons of times! I've seen every episode of Degrassi at least twice. I also listen to my favorite podcasts over and over again.

Basically, there are no limits on re-enjoying things I love. But of course, you do want to make sure you give new things a chance. You never know when I new favorite may arise! For instance, today I read the first volume of Mars, and I'm totally in love. I'm so happy to find something new to obsess over. Especially to try and get me through the coughing fit end of this cold! Basically, it's been tea and tissues and Kingdom Hearts: Birth By Sleep for the last 7 days. I'm definitely feeling better, but the coughing has been disrupting my sleeping the last few days, and I can get really messed up over loss of sleep.

Current Mood: sick

So, apparently, one can only have 150 interests on LiveJournal. I tried to add one just now (Eli/Clare, though it may be temporary), and it told me I had the limit. So, I did some interest pruning. It did actually need it. And I could probably do more if I wanted to be strict, but I don't like this limit. I'm paying for LiveJournal services, and I am interested in way more than 150 things. Sorry, for being an "interesting" person? Actually, I'm not... but it would be nice if LJ could add on loyalty interests or some such, like they do with icons. Just a thought.

By the way, I actually had an Eli/Clare dream. o.O; I guess that shows that my subconcious, at least, has jumped ships. :/ I'm starting to wonder if K.C./Clare = Shouji/Hachi and Eli/Clare = Nobu/Hachi, for me. I was totally in love with Shouji/Hachi when I first started the manga, but then, he breaks her heart, and I was traumatized for awhile. I'm not sure I loved Shouji/Hachi quite at a comparable level to K.C./Clare, or for as long, but still.

This is so strange for me.

I think I'd be better off thinking of Clare (and Hachi, for that matter) more as daughters rather than as me. That way, I can still feel a strong connection with them, wanting the very best for them, but not feel so personally betrayed by the inevitable drama. As long as they end up happy, it shouldn't matter who they end up with. ..right? (Vanessa: Just keep repeating that, Valerie.)

Actually, in the dream, Eli was more "flirting" with me. As in trying to win me over, so I'd let him date my daughter. :P He said he'd become a vegetarian. A great way to score points with me!

Yes, I'm weird. I know.

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Lady Gaga - Paparazzi | Powered by Last.fm

So, I'm finally watching the English version of NANA. I've had it since it came out, but I've been too scared to watch it. Until tonight, when I randomly decided to watch it. (This is how most minor choices of mine are made: randomly.)

Anyways, I'm basing this on only the first episode, but I think it's pretty great. It was totally jarring, at first, don't get me wrong. And I'm sure I'll always prefer the Japanese version, because it's the one that I fell in love with. But there's no way I could dislike the English version. I mean, Barbie is in it. And I can honestly see how (so far, at least) the voices fit the characters. They don't match the Japanese version, but taking that away, I think it totally works. I could see myself adoring this version if it was how I first watched the show. But as it stands, I know it won't be torture to watch it, which was my fear. It's actually quite good, so I'm enjoying it for what it is. (Other than the changing around of ending songs, because that's just stupid. ~_~; )

And I want Kelly Sheridan's autograph. Like, seriously. <3

Edit: It feels like I'm starting all over again. Watching Hachi and Shouji... I almost like them together again! How bizarre. I guess that means everyone is doing a good job, right? You're supposed to like Hachi and Shouji until... yeah. This is very strange, but in a good way.

Current Mood: pleased

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I actually have never read as much as other people thought or expected. Being a writer, I can see why people would think I read more. I'm not sure why I don't, but I find inspiration in all sorts of mediums. So, would I trade abilities with another author? No. I admire Jo Rowling very, very much. And I'm thankful for what her creativity has done for my life. But I can write already, in my own style. What I'd wish for instead, is something that I don't have, to gain the artistic ability of Ai Yazawa, so I could draw out my lovely characters exactly as I see them. I still wouldn't trade it for what I have now, but I wish so much that I could draw the things I see so vividly in my mind.

Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: Skeeter Davis - The End Of The World | Powered by Last.fm

NANA part 1 came in the mail today! I'm super excited... but at the same time, I feel pretty sure that I'm too used to and in love with the Japanese version to enjoy the English version that much. Usually, I love English dubs, but this is a special case. So I'm kind of scared to watch it.

I do think that the Hachi voice actress will be great. I mean she plays Barbie in the Barbie movies (which I tend to love, so shush.). And isn't Hachi just a little Japanese Barbie doll? On the other hand, she does Sango in InuYasha, so I feel like she can do the more serious side of Hachi too.

I'm going to try to watch the English version at least once all the way through. I have to give it a chance. Of course, even if I don't care for it... and even if I'm too used to the fansubs to even like the official subs (this was the case with The Girl who Leapt Through Time), I'm happy to legitimately own NANA. <3 I should really be doing that with the manga more too. Even though I hate thinking I'm supporting the people who translated volume 2. ~_~; Nana, man. Ugh. I really hope it's gotten better since then.

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Anna Tsuchiya inspi' NANA - better day | Powered by Last.fm

So, there's going to be a new FullMetal Alchemist anime soon. I'm very excited, but after watching this very short video, I realized I'm going to have to wait for the anime to be dubbed before getting to see it. Not only did I watch the whole first series in English dub, but It's just too strange to hear Nana's voice (Romi Paku) as Ed. Haha.

But that's okay. I think the English cast is fabulous. (Hopefully, they'll be sticking to it. - I would assume so.) And this will give me some time to actually read the manga on which it will be more faithfully based. I have the first volume, I just need to sit down and get to it. (Though I really should read Breaking Dawn first. I must stop putting that off eventually... I just hate when things end. :( )

So that's my little random thought for today. *Wanders off*

Current Mood: giggly
Current Music: The Leaky Cauldron (LeakyNews.com) - PotterCast Show #38: Dobby is Free | Powered by Last.fm

Intense spoilers. The post I promised...

( What do I tell Nana? )

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Evanescence - Where Will You Go | Powered by Last.fm

So, it should be well known by most who read this journal, but I'll say it anyway... I really adore NANA. And I associate myself with Hachi to a, sometimes, alarming degree. That in itself could probably be a post someday! (Maybe some other time...) But today, I've come with a few pictures of my NANA (and NANA inspired) jewelry. Mostly Hachi stuff.

Warning... pictures of me under the cut... shield your eyes.

( Yes, I know my obsessiveness is scary... )

Current Mood: dorky
Current Location: Room 707

So, I've been cleaning out my computer for AGES. Seriously, a long time. And I had a perfectly good second 300 Gig hard drive that I was being too stubborn to use. But then I had dream telling me to use it. Haha. That's honestly what prompted me to do it. I was cleaning since March... and doing little else. Honestly. That's why I haven't been attentive to my Friends List. I'm so sorry. I'm normally so quiet anyways, I wonder if anyone actually cared? ~_~;

But now I'm done with cleaning! And free! Too free... I don't know what to focus on.

My Dreaming in Shadow notebook is falling apart so that's kind of my first priority. To rewrite that. And not use a silly Tinkerbell notebook that's going to fall apart. Haha. It's funny but sad, because I promised myself that would be the last time I started DiS over by hand. I guess it's a good thing, though... I did my last rewrite of the prologue before October. Before my strong inspiration wave overtook me. And I discovered it needed some work again. Surprise, surprise. I guess it's best to take care of it now.

That prologue has always driven me crazy... it's so hard to have to constantly write so vaguely. Only use "the girl" and "the girl's mother". Uggh. But that's how it must be. Anyways, I worked really hard editing the first page. I found that I'm cutting a lot of sentences out and blending lots together. I suppose that's what editing is... stupid Valval. I guess I'm just surprised because I thought I was done working on it. But after I did the first page with lines through all kinds of stuff, I sort of lost my vibe and gave up to dooddle on the bottom of the page. Haha. And I never do stuff like that. Only when I really can't focus. Which is rare.

Then, I tried out my Sims for the first time in months and found I was having issues. I figured out the problem, but I'm still frustrated.

Theeeen... I devoured two whole volumes of NANA. I've read up through volume 18 now! ^_^ My mind is buzzing about with a million thoughts about 17 and 18, but I read so much at once that I can't keep myself on one topic in particular yet.

Actually... that's what this post seems like... I don't usually have so many different things in one entry. o.O; I'm really all over the place. My apologies.

Also! My Nana made a NANA video! (^o^)/

Coming Soon:
Zoo Pictures! I went for the first time since I was really little. HeH.

Current Mood: confused
Current Location: Home
Current Music: BoA - Lose Your Mind

( NANA Manga Spoilers Through Volume 16 )

Current Mood: peaceful
Current Location: Home
Current Music: Mika Nakashima - Isolation

For a much shorter version of this post see here.

( The Long Version )

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Current Location: Home
Current Music: Crispin

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Entries tagged with nana

The glasses broke...

Sometimes

Writer's Block: Time after time...

Becoming less interesting...

NANA (English Version)

Artistic Styles

NANA Part 1

FullMetal Alchemist - Ed/Nana

NANA Manga Discussion Up Through Chapter 80

NANA Inspired Jewelry

Freedom?

My Dearest Shin-chan...

Of Takumi and Crispin